[Lonely for Don, yes... perhaps lonelier still for Robert. His partner, his best friend, other friends that he's made here... torn away from him for four days full of death and terror and constant fear that he'll lose them when there is nothing he can do about it again.
And he doesn't answer the question at first, just holds himself tightly against Don and... considers the statement.
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Part of him, in some horrifyingly detached logical way, wants to see what he's capable of. Wants to see what will end up hurting - killing - the Third Party. Sapients. Sapients who were just on the other side of this bloody faction between the Malnosso and the Third Party.
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The rest of him can't even fathom it, is terrified by the thought of seeing it so viscerally - it's one thing to know Don can fight and kill. It's even one thing to see Helios, warped by the AU, try to kill him. It is a whole other thing entirely to see Don, in his right mind, do things that would hurt or kill.]
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I... ... P-Perhaps, but... [He tells himself that nothing could tarnish Don's beauty in his eyes, that this fighting thing wouldn't change him - after all, he knew Don could do this cerebrally. But... he's never seen a fight, he's never witnessed this kind of thing...]
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I-it, it would be... th-the... f-first time I have... s-seen anything like it...
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And he doesn't answer the question at first, just holds himself tightly against Don and... considers the statement.
...
Part of him, in some horrifyingly detached logical way, wants to see what he's capable of. Wants to see what will end up hurting - killing - the Third Party. Sapients. Sapients who were just on the other side of this bloody faction between the Malnosso and the Third Party.
...
The rest of him can't even fathom it, is terrified by the thought of seeing it so viscerally - it's one thing to know Don can fight and kill. It's even one thing to see Helios, warped by the AU, try to kill him. It is a whole other thing entirely to see Don, in his right mind, do things that would hurt or kill.]
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I... ... P-Perhaps, but... [He tells himself that nothing could tarnish Don's beauty in his eyes, that this fighting thing wouldn't change him - after all, he knew Don could do this cerebrally. But... he's never seen a fight, he's never witnessed this kind of thing...]
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I-it, it would be... th-the... f-first time I have... s-seen anything like it...