[Realizing he's been given a window to explain, Robert decides to take advantage of it.]

... When I began my... s-self-destructive patterns of drug utilization... I did it in order to feel c-comfortable and wanted. It was... enjoyable to Benjamin, that I was involved in s-something that he viewed as mere recreational activity. It assisted in my social a-anxieties, and it made... communication artificially simplified. It was, in essence, a s-substitute for emotional and mental connections with others...